crossing the threshold

What is the purpose of life? Are we to be passive and go along with the flow of life? I believe we should take initiative and hit it head on. The most dreadful thought is knowing that you could have done something different. That you could have made a different choice or taken a different path which may have altered the outcome. What will we feel when we are of age, and we reflect on our empty lives, only to discover the vacant lives which we have led?

As I continue on with my life, I am at that crucial point where I am beginning to cross the threshold and venture into the unknown world, not knowing what lies ahead. As I approach the time where I am going to move out of the house and head off to college, I wonder where I will end up. Right now, it is as if I am in the matrix, in an endless hall with doors on each side, not knowing exactly what is on the other side. As I narrow down my options, and pinpoint which direction I want to go, I will soon need to pick a door. The moment I complete this step over the threshold of this door, it will be like stepping out of an airplane into thin air. It will be a moment of free fall. It is then that I will be forced to lay down the foundation of my life and decide what direction I want to go. I will need to decide what career to pursue so I can support myself and my family. Once I have decided, it is then that I can pull the chute, and I can slow things down. I can then settle down, and live my life happily ever after with my family.